I am going to start honest and say that I have never been proud of my own body.
I have always felt that my body was never good or 'perfect' enough and I had put all of my focus on all of my flaws.
I always use to compare myself to other girls on Instagram and other social media sites (because let's be honest, seeing girls with ultra-toned bodies can really make you feel like crap). This was one of my biggest mistakes. Comparison!
I had always known that to compare yourself to other girls is NEVER a good thing, but I had become addicted to the idea of it! I always felt ashamed of my body and would never walk confidently on the beach in a sexy two-piece bikini because it doesn't matter how cute or even sexy the bikini was, it never made me feel sexy.
I would even look at December holiday pictures and I completely hated the way I looked in a bikini that I ended up only taking beach pictures in either a full cover swimsuit or in shorts and a top. As much as I loved shopping, the one thing I hated most was going into a fitting room where that horrible LED light would point out every single flaw on your body that I even had emotional breakdowns because I believed what the mirror and the horrible LED light.
When I met my Fiancè, he would always tell me that my body is perfect to him but deep down inside, a part of me never believed him. When we first moved in together I had felt extremely insecure about my body and even being naked in front of him.
Although he was always supportive and told me that there was absolutely nothing wrong with my body, a part of me had always thought that he was just saying that to make me feel better.
I had this constant idea that to get the "perfect" body, I had to lose weight. I had gone on some of the CRAZIEST diets and even drank pills and going to the gym 3 hours a day to lose weight. There were times that I had even refused to eat. After I had lost loads of weight... I still wasn't happy with myself.
This had started to have quite a negative impact in my relationship. I would constantly fight with my Fiancè because I was fully convinced that he would look at other girls who had better bodies than me. This was honestly all just in my head!
I have always wanted to do a photoshoot to boost my confidence in myself and my body. As I was scrolling through Instagram, a beautiful friend of mine had tagged me in Golden Fox competition. I don't know what it was, but something inside of me said; "Kelley, here is your chance!".
On the day that the winned had been anounced, I literally had to read my name 10 times over to make sure that it was actually we who had won! I was over the moon!!!!! After the reality of my photoshoot had sunk in.... so dit my anxiety!!! I was extremely nervous about the photoshoot and what the outcome of it would be!
I had even planned to go on another crazy diet before the shoot! As I counted down the days to the shoot, I never started with my diet because life had just been too busy. I decided to rather not go on the diet. On the day of the photoshoot I had felt every emotion that I possible could! Part of me wanted to run away, but the other part of me convinced myself that I can do this!!!
When I met Simone for the first time, she had this AMAZING and bubbly personality that made me feel like I had known her my entire life! Because of how professional and relaxed she was, I had started to feel extremely comfortable with her! I could never stand naked before somebody, specially someone that I had just met, but Simone made me feel like I was a Victoria Secret model!
I absolutely LOVED meeting Lisa Brown! She is such a stylish woman which was extremely inspirational to me! I felt amazing and like a true model after my hair and makeup had been completed! When we started taking pictures I felt extremely shy but Simone completely changed that!
She taught me so many tips during the shoot that in a matter of minutes I felt a confidence kick in and I was enjoying every single moment of it!!! I honestly felt like a celebrity for a day and that was enough to completely changed my life!!! Simone, I honestly can't thank you enough for this opportunity! YOU CHANGED MY LIFE! After my photoshoot, the confidence I gained in my body never went away!! My Fiancè had noticed the change in me and this completely took our relationship to an entire new level and I absolutely love it !!!!
Thank you so much Simone ! What you are doing to empower women is working, because once again, YOU CHANGED MY LIFE!❤️